Of all the Things I wanted to say and couldn't ...

Of all the things I wanted to say and couldn't ...

                   Life is like a roller coaster ride.

It isn't always pretty, and it isn't always fun. But if we stick it out through all the loop-de-loops and twists and turns we'll wind up at the end.

Nonsense & Such

“I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, It's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. Which is what I do, And that enables you to laugh at life's realities.”       --- Dr. Seuss

                                        

6 Things that made me laugh today.

1. Samuel was jumping around in a mushroom chair. Daddy says, "That chair'll cut your fingers off, boy."
2. I said, "Don't drowned." To which came the reply, "Haha! You are funny."
3. Kenna and I were teasing Elaina and I said, "My favorite color is Violet, Kenna." We cracked up insanely much.
4. Mommy said, "Honey, what books did you need to get again?" I heard myself say, "Parenting for dummies." Oh no! Did I for real say that in my people voice? I look at daddy, he's smirking | trying not to laugh. Epic fail! I must be careful what I say.
5. I'm driving like a nut. Mommy says, "I swear, girl! Oh did you just ask me to drive?"
6. We brought Baklava home. One of the girls asked, "What in the world is Vodka? I thought it was bad." I die. Really I do.  

Nothing Profound.

• Went to Target and got my Mommy some Starbucks coffee to warm her insides.
• Found a sunny yellow shirt thingy and it made me wish for Summer time. WHY are they selling summery stuff in the dead of winter anyways?!
• I'm sitting in the middle of this thing called a Chair & a Half. It makes me think of Dr. Seusse. But its a comfy thing and the internet is good. Remind me this doesn't do much to keep your brain alert and enthusiastic ...
• Trying to remember if I've ever seen Iron Man?
• So I randomly decided to break my neck skiiing or ice skating or something semi-cold pretty soon.
• Had 5 Guys Burger & Cajun Fries for lunch. Oh my goodness, bad-for-you food almost never tasted so yummy!
• I found a pair of dark purple Argyle socks today. They are the cutest in the world! Least, that's my opinion right this minute.
• Currently questioning my use of capital letters. Oh well ... I don't hear an English profession calling my name. Lucky for me, too.
• I can't send more than one text message at a time, I'm not sure why I try. I wonder what kind of old people our generation will be, you know ... with the whole texting thing and whatnot.
• There are 1, 533-ish verses in Genesis. If anybody was wondering.
• Moved some furniture out of my room last night. I don't typically make a habit out of that, but they were driving me nuts. Running into things the moment you sleepily roll out of bed isn't my cup of tea, exactly.
• Today was busy, tomorrow will be full of a lot of nothing-ness. I almost like that, but haven't quite decided.
• I miss NC drivers. VA drivers are scary and wild. lol
• My sister may attempt to drive my stick-shift. Scariness! If you wandered what my nightmares entail, I just gave you a hint. I love her.
• I owe a lot of people a lot of things. Hugs | Kisses | Candy | Shopping Trips | Knowledge | Lunch dates | TIME in general. I love it.

Nothing Profound ... as of two days ago.

• The TV gets insanely loud sometimes.
• Conversations around the supper table are still warm and funny.
• It isn't in my head. Would it be insanely rude to say, I told you so? Just wondering.
• Dissapointments are sometimes stepping stones to better things.
• Quiet is still very much appreciated.
• I could really, REALLY go for a Chicken Basil Pizza. Not the whole thing, not even half. But I really could go for some.
• Organization on the brain. Beware!
• Contemplating my newest project ... idk, just thinking about doing somethin.
• Randomly decided Reeses should have more peanut butter. Yay!
• Why can't all chocolate be dark? Since we were almost on the subject anyway.
• LOVE the corkboard above my desk. It is unadulterated inspiration; it begs me to fill it with all kinds of random goodness.
• Shutting my door when I'm organizing something makes daddy worry less.
• One day I really will send snail mail to everyone I'm thinking about. Someday ... but for now that stack of cute stationary is just going to collect dust.
• My collection of special B&W photos is growing. They are lovely.

Nothing Profound.

• After six days, it feels good to re-connect with the worldly wide web.
• I really didn't think I would be sick on Christmas, but I am. I'm all sniffles and smiles.
• Love being with my family for Christmas.
• The snow is just coming down.
• That vintage kitchen table I found is sitting in a corner of my room. I love.
• We've all improved with age ... or at least I think so!
• My opinion of Egg Nog is still ugh. Reminds me of a gallon of paint.
• My mother really is capable of putting a pool table together. Wonder of wonders.
• Watched 2 episodes of NCIS.
• Never mind about the Egg Nog. I can't taste anything at the moment, so I just tried some of my Papa's. It reminded me of a milk shake. Go figure. 
• Papa says he "nick-nacked" all day yesterday, meaning he munched on Christmas goodies. That makes me smile. 
• I've slept an awful lot lately. 
• My fingers are crossed.
• Abby's giving me a mini-sermon on our differing opinions. Joys of sibling-hood. 
• My grandparents 10 foot tree is absolutely amazing. Just like when I was little.
• Daddy gave me a pair of tights that are the cutest!
• The boys are dashing around the den playing Hyper Dash! No fooling, it's SO funny watching them.
• The first Merry Christmas I was wished this morning was my favorite. 
• My Papa's so smart, he's full of interesting facts and ... smartness!

Nothing Profound.

• The whole baking thing wasn’t epic failure.
• Locked the keys in my car. Smartness.
• It happens sometimes. He didn't seem to be terribly depressed about it, either. ;)
• Drank me some of the Purple Powder and I was ready to roll, Jack!
• Got a white hoodie that smells pretty much amazing.
• Phone calls kept me awake and smiling.
• Got a ZILLION hugs the moment I walked in the door. It was freezing but they all ran outside to meet me. Aw.
• Discovered I left my phone charger in NC, and then my car charger decided to snap on me. DEPRESSION! No phone | No schedule | No life. How does one survive? Jk
• Met the newest little man for the first in my life and fell in itty bitty pieces of love with him.
• Unpacked all my stuff, and hung it in that awesomely large new closet.  *Sigh*
• Missed waking up to my lovely roommates this morning. 
• The amount you can miss someone is astounding. 
• The bathroom floor isn’t cold! Nice change.

Nothing Profound.

• I made it through a WHOLE semester. This sudden realization made me tear up a bit.
• I have zero confidence in my baking skills just now. 
• I couldn't have made it this far without God.
• Camera phones make me smile. Go figure, yeah.
• Drea gave me a necklace for Christmas with lots of little things on it. I like muchly.
• This ain't nothing. Really, it's not.
• Everyday struggles make me stronger.
• My Passion & Purity book is so underlined it's insane. I love that book.
• I met a little boy yesterday. I could make him laugh forever. It was contagious!
• Smells like some sort of goodness. That really makes me smile.
• "Your hair grows faster when you're in love." I like that. 
• Heard the Beach Boys Little Saint Nick twice this week. 
• I went to breakfast without my dear Jenny-fur today.
• It's still real cold outside and I'm loving the fuzzy socks.
• I'll be making blue-eyed gingerbread men VERY SOON! 
• Quiet is good, but lots of little voices shouting above each other, telling me how much they miss me are going to be pretty much amazing when I get where I'm going.
• One day at a time ...

Nothing Profound.

• Alarm went off at 5, got up at 6:50.
• We didn't really fail White Glove.
• The HARDEST Deatrick final happened today. Nobody saw that one coming.
• On the peak of exhaustion, a friend offered to buy me a perk-me-up. Aww.
• I'm on the other side of 3 consecutive finals. Only 1 left, that makes me smile.
• Student body chapel cracked me up! Hello?
• Chipmunks ARE roasting on an open fire. 
• Laughter relieves all kinds of crazy stress.
• Crowding into the breezeway is fun. If not a little bit loud. 
• My shoe fell off in the Commons, Candice laughed. I like her laugh. 
• Grabbed Chinese from the Mall, some random guy across the restaurant waved and says "Hey Chick."
• A nice old man opened the door for me, and kept right on walking with me for a whole minute just chatting up a storm. He's from Myrtle beach and I'm from Richmond. It all started with "You ready for Christmas, little lady?" to which I said, "Yeah, I am! How about you?" Amazing isn't it? 
• Something in me screams, "Shut up, and just say thank you for opening the door." Oh well, hopeless. 
• When did I become an insanely friendly-chatty sort of individual?!
• A spacey old lady sat down beside me, starts up a conversation about how her Christmas program might get canceled on account of a storm. And did I know if they'd really cancel for a reason like that? I shrug and tell her I'll cross my fingers. She patted my hand. Apparently, she liked that.

Nothing Profound.

• Stating the obvious is sometimes fun. It makes me smile. alot.
• It's really, really COLD outside! Brr ...
• People in this McDonald's shout, that's not really awesome.
• Talking things out is huge. Communication is a must in life.
• I spotted Santa's twin today. No lie.
• People are watching you when you least expect.
• Twisting the ring around my finger feels good. 
• The chapel message this morning was unbelievably convicting.
• I'm really not getting anything done sitting here like this. Getting annoyed with MD's employees really doesn't count.
• The couple sitting to my left just held hands as they prayed for their food. I think that's pretty sweet.
• I was encouraged to be aware of my surroundings. An absolutely fantastic idea!
• Worry is a good thing sometimes, and greatly appreciated it.
• Laughter relieves a bunch of stress. I thank my roommates for this.
• If your printer says you've got a Paper Jam, check for a mechanical pencil wedged between the paper. Seriously.

First day of Finals

My roommates and I stayed up until midnight. Papers were scattered all over the room and it looked like 5 year olds had torn the place apart. We ate chocolate and drank spark.

We compared notes, and fell asleep one by one. Hours later as some sort of wet stuff -- whether snow, rain or sleet we'll never know -- tapped against our windowpane and air unit, we sleepily crawled, scooted and rolled out of bed.

I glanced at the clock an hour after crawling out of bed, and randomly decided to go to breakfast for the third time since the beginning of semester. The moment I opened the door, a big old gust of icy air hit me in the face with unbelievable force. It took my breath away. I contemplated not going to breakfast after all, but the thought of hot breakfast sounded like a pretty good idea.

I studied for a few hours, cleaned up our little room and drank another spark. Did I mention I sort of, kind of, maybe like that stuff a little bit? I tried it for the first time last night. It's supposed to give you mental focus rather than energy and I thought, Hey why not?

Heart races. Brain registers a new funny kind of feelings. You're suddenly reminded of grape Koolaide from when you were a kid, etc.Yeah.

So I sat in the middle of my room, downing spark and writing like mad. I have no idea how much info I was really retaining in my multi-tasking state of being, but I wasn't lounging around in my Pj's that's for sure. Note: at 6am, I'm typically curled up with my blanket begging time to stand still. So this was really progress.

By the time I braved the cold once again, I still had no clue how I would do on this whole Theology final. I prayed | I glanced at my notes feverishly reading every little thing I could cram in | I checked the clock counting down to mere minutes | I took a deep breath.

I finished my final. I walked out of class, sighing with relief to check one off my list. It felt good, regardless of the grade I would make. I think I did alright. And so long as it was my best, I know the Lord is pleased. :)

Psalm 27:14

"  Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD."

Nothing Profound.

• I woke up to a cloudy, wet world. 
• God's word amazed me, again.
• Loving encouragement was a big ray of sunshine in my soul.
• I left the dorm on time. 
• A sweet little baby fell asleep on my chest this morning. 
• The Children's Christmas play went well. 
• Church let out early and my coffee was still warm.

Not So Random.

Of all the things I wanted to say but couldn't and shouldn't, I will say this ...

I am so tired. 

I'll be Home for Christmas ...

""  I'll be home for Christmas, you can plan on me"

...  and that's no joke. 

In seven days I will be chucking all those lovely belongings into my car and hitting the highway like nobody's business. I'm going to make dozens of blue-eyed gingerbread men, listen to *fun* Christmas music till my sanctified ears can't take it another minute which probably won't happen for a long time yet ...

And then I'm going to sleep in, hang out in my jammies and be a real strange heathen that doesn't make my bed the second I get up, and stay up hours after midnight, maybe.

So I've just got to get through these finals and pack up my stuff. Packing up is no problemo, but the finals are pretty much a big old burden on my mind right now.

But there's nothing like hanging out with some friends, watching a Christmas cartoon -- about Santa's elves no less -- and priding myself in drinking a whole cup of coffee.

Stopping to Consider

• I'm an adult now. 
• I have to make a lot of my own decisions.
• Jesus is God!
• I'm still a big fat sinner. 
• I've got an unbelievable amount of Blessings. 
• I have a sudden love affair with cute tights.
• Making (above) decisions isn't always fun.
• Tiny things are cute, with the exception of bugs & such.
• Coffee is a miracle drug.
• Leaning over, pointing out the Check Engine light to Dad is fine, not so Joe when I'm on my lonesome.
• The night sky is Amazing!
• I owe God SO much. He gives me every breath, loves me, strengthens me and amazes me daily. 
• Good Things are worth waiting for, this I know!
• I take heat for granted until my fingers remind me of Icicles.
• Fuzzy Socks are a good thing first thing in the morning on a COLD bathroom floor.
• repeat the last one, because it's just so good.
• The snooze button is a dangerous thing.
• $3 deals are something else. 
• God is always there. Sounds simple, but it randomly hits me in a profound way.
• Psalms is chucked full of awesome-ness. 
• Trials make you pray a whole bunch, and make you a lot stronger. 
• 148 days doesn't ever seem like it's going to come. But it will.
• FREE Quizzes in class are surprisingly terrific!
• Christmas music in the car makes for a pretty happy gal.
• Same goes for PB&J wraps on the sly, and random smiles. 
• ... and my mama & daddy are laughing because my first consideration was being an "adult".